Hi Everyone! I'm Jodi from Sweets & Shutterclicks!
People ask me if I'm Christian and of course, I say yes. I believe that God loves you and is always with you on your travels in life. Now there have been times, especially in the past 10 years that my faith has taken a few hits and a couple of shakes, but it has never diminished. Have there been times when I questioned God's plan? Yes, but my mother told me once that God knows what you are going through and He is with you, He is just waiting for you to turn back to Him....
My husband and I have been trying to have a child for several years. And we have experienced 3 miscarriages within the span of 3 years, one was at 5 1/2 months. Those events drove me to a very dark place with depression and sadness. I pulled away from everyone.....my family, my friends, my husband, & even God for a while. I curled up in bed and didn't leave for a few months. I was sad, angry, confused, and I wasn't sure which way to turn, as I said before, I questioned His plan.
After a few months, I finally started talking with my mother again, she has been my counselor and my friend. And her advice was to PRAY! Pray for direction, pray for strength, just PRAY. So, that's what I did! I returned to church, where I believe that God sent me my 2nd angel (my mom being the 1st) and directed me to one of my favorite verses that to this day picks me up when I struggle.
I went to church for the evening service, and while I had begun to find my way back, my heart was still heavy. It was at the end of the service and we were having a prayer session. I became overwhelmed with sadness and had to sit down. I sat there praying and someone came up from behind me (I never turned my head, but I could tell it was a female voice) and said that she was praying and that she felt moved to come over to me and tell me to remember Jeremiah 29:11. I said, "thank you" and I got no response, so I turned around and she was gone. I went home and looked up the verse on my computer...
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I sat there with my mouth open. He WAS listening, He WAS still there. I knew I was on the right path and I knew He was still walking with me on this path. I believe God had sent this person to me to remind me.
So, I continued to work on myself. I reconnected with my husband & my friends. I began seeing a Christian counselor which has helped so much. Everyday I feel more and more like my old self, I know that God has a plan for me and that I will be a mom (we are looking at adoption if we are not able to have a child) someday.
And while of course there are days where I feel sadness for what I've lost, I try to keep a positive outlook on life. I take stock in the good things when I feel sad. I pray everyday and I look around and feel so blessed. I have friends, I have a husband who is my partner and my rock, & 2 sets of parents (including my in-laws) who support me TOTALLY. I really feel like my mother was speaking the truth, He was just waiting for me to turn back to Him. And my unknown angel was right too, He knows His plan for me..
That is how I experienced God's love. He helped me through a very dark time, he sent my mother, my husband and an unknown angel to pull me out of my sadness because he loved me so much.
Got a story you wanna share during this series? Email me: tdiehl2005(at)yahoo(dot)com